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Do you want to know God?

Do you want to have an intimate relationship with God?

Do you want to feel God’s love and power in your life?

Well, there’s one way I know of  that will give you this.

It’s called “Doing The Hard Thing.”

I have been sober since 1980. That’s 33 years now. That was a very hard thing to do. It’s not so hard now, but I still need God to do it – every day. In fact, in order to keep my life together and to not blow up into a million pieces, I have to have God – to do that for me.

Just showing up to life – is a very hard thing for me to do.

I’ve been a suicide addict since I was 5 years old. The hard thing was not to do it. Today I am suicide addiction free. I’ve been free since 1997. That’s 15 years now. But what’s on the other end of not committing suicide? It’s living life here, on this planet. A very, very hard thing for me to do; so I must rely on God also do the living of this life –  for me.

I was a hider from people most of my life. I never made a single friend growing up. Being sociable, having social interaction with people was a very hard thing for me to do. But, with God’s love and power, I have been practicing doing this hard thing for a while now. With God, I’m finding myself able to be sociable in my Bible Study at church. In God, I have been practicing learning everybody’s names so that I can say hello to them every week. I very much need God near me, remembering the names – for me – and giving me the courage to go up to them and say “Hello”. Then I must rely on God to help me interact with them in a sane manner.

A hard thing I have yet to be willing to try is letting go of junk food. I think this might be the hardest thing I could tackle. But I know, as I’m writing this post, at this moment, that if I want to get even closer to God I will have to face it. Letting go of junk food would be very, very hard thing for me to do.

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But there’s more to this than just doing a hard thing. The trick is you have to keep doing it.

Every day; day after day; week after week; year after year – without let up.

Doing the hard thing this way – can break a person in two. It can [and most likely will] be earth shattering. But that’s the whole idea. It’s absolutely necessary. In order to let God and Jesus into your life – fully, you need to become broken. To break. Jesus said He wants us to be “broken”. Doing the hard thing will break you.

It will be painful to do, there’s no doubt about this. We don’t do hard things because they are – painful. It can be, and hopefully will be, a “buckling the knees” painful. A “fall on your face and beg for God’s help” painful. This is a necessary step to becoming broken.

It will bring out anger. The pain will produce anger. For a little while – before you break – there may be lots of this. It’s can become a “I hate you God!” anger. This is ok. But when you do get angry [and you will], don’t keep your anger from Him. Let Him have it with both barrels. He knows about the anger – and He can easily handle it. Horribly angry, or not, He loves you. His love is without conditions. He will never leave you just because you’re mad.

Then, as you continue doing your hard thing, you will slowly break. And you will be forced to develop a very strong, and honest, relationship with our Creator. And, as you slowly break, you will come to the realization that it’s no longer you who are doing the hard thing, it is God doing it – through you.

So pick your hard thing. If you want to know God in the most intimate way possible.

Pick your hard thing.

I dare you. I double dare you.

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